Monday, June 21, 2010

DOUBT DOUBT DOUBT

Hey guys!! Father's Day was yesterday!! And this picture above really made my day!!!
And also Darth Vader's tweets on Twitter were neurotically epic!!!
Check them out here! http://www.twitter.com/darthvader/favorites

Anyways...I've been some doubts recently...
And I was thinking...who in this world doesn't doubt?
I am proud to admit that at times...I doubt a lot...and I do mean A LOT...
Like...there was this one time when I was on duty to look after 3-6 yr old kids during church service...this boy shared a testimony of how he prayed to God when he was lost in the mall and then his parents found him...
So inside my heart I was asking God "Really? Did he pray?"
Or even more specifically..."CAN he pray? Since he's like...5..."
And God just repeated said "Sean, do not doubt. Sean, do not doubt."
But I couldn't help it...I DOUBTED... *gasp*
But when that boy finished sharing his testimony, he walked over to me and said this...

"I REALLY PRAYED!! I NEVER LIE!!"

I was shocked.
How did he know?

Did you tell him that...God?

Or did he read my expression?

And just recently, there was loads of internet fury about City Harvest...
Again...I doubted in my heart...
"Are they really doing this God?"
"Or is it just persecution?"

Somehow...I felt the Holy Spirit telling me it's persecution...
And I was yet again surprised..
Persecution against Christians in Singapore...
I felt comforted by what the Holy Spirit said...but can't help it but DOUBT A LITTLE...

To add onto the paranoia...I was beginning to doubt others too...
Insecurities and paranoia can really stir up lots of doubt...
But I constantly ask God to keep me...and not let me doubt...
But it's only human to doubt right?
I mean...

ARE YOU GULLIBLE?
TO BELIEVE EVERYTHING WHOLESALE? 100%?


OR

YOU TRUST OTHERS BECAUSE YOU HAVE CONFIDENCE IN THEM?
YOU GAVE THEM YOUR TRUST...JUST AS THEY HAVE GIVEN YOU THEIRS?




"I am not ashamed, because I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that God is able to guard what I have entrusted to Him."
2 Timothy 1:12