Showing posts with label Emo Post Chapters. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Emo Post Chapters. Show all posts

Friday, June 18, 2010

SOMETIMES WE FORGET...


Hey guys!! I'm finally back to blogging!!
Changed template...skin and rearranged some nonsense here and there...
But all in all...I've changed the concept of this blog...
Okay so here's a little bit of something I was working on some time now...when I was free...
It's a poem entitled "Sometimes we forget"...
It's basically an inaccurate summary of things that we forget...and the reasons behind them...

SOMETIMES WE FORGET...
Sometimes we forget who God is,
Because we fit Him into whom we want Him to be.

Sometimes we forget our happiness,
Because our joy has been robbed.

Sometimes we forget the sound of laughter,
Because our ears cannot receive what we cannot give.

Sometimes we forget the joy we have shared,
Because that joy did not last forever.

Sometimes we forget what we are angry at,
Because the frustration itself is what we remember.

Sometimes we forget why we cry,
Because the tears from our eyes have blinded us.

Sometimes we forget who our closest friends are,
Because we were always finding them.

Sometimes we forget the people whom we have met,
Because they were simply forgotten-just.like.that.

Sometimes we forget who helped us,
Because we are just so prideful.

Sometimes we forget that attracting attention is harmful,
Because we are repelling people’s respect for us.

Sometimes we forget to be nice and kind,
Because we think being sarcastic and snarky makes us more intellectual.

Sometimes we forget that we are young adults,
Because being a child is so liberating and carefree.

Sometimes we forget our purpose and destiny,
Because the world has caught up to us.

Sometimes we forget to take off our masks,
Because we fit so well into those roles.

Sometimes we forget who we are,
Because we were trying to be who we aren’t.

Well...a poem's a poem...and not everyone is as expressive as Picasso...
Gonna blog more often now...as promised...

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

ISSUES

Back to blogging...it's been around 2 months already!!!

Anyways...there are many issues in my life now...

And they suck big time...

I dunno why...but I feel that God has really made my life fun...

And honestly...I think He's been good to me...but there are so many issues I'm dealing with right now that I feel...

I feel that I have not been sharing them with Him...but instead with other people...

So...let's summarise the issues...

#1: Church
Sighhh....it's just hard to say this...but I feel like leaving church....
It's really not easy for me to carry on staying there when I can make no friends...
Funny thing is...I can make friends with non-Christians...but with Christians...I just can't click with them...
All we ever do is just "church-stuff" or "ministry-duties"...
Not much real bonding ever happens...I'm always like saying "hi" and "bye" to them...
And I'm gonna have a talk with my leader soon...hopefully it resolves stuff...
But the only reason I'm staying is...and the only reason is...because I love God. And I love the youths He has put under my care. As simple as that.


#2: School
Ahhh...the biggest shit...
It's not that I dun like school...I like it...I like the lessons...
But there are just some shitty people I dun like...(*cough* STORM IG)
Hmm...let's be hush-hush about that....
Coz it's not very nice to wash dirty linen in public....
But deep down...I kinda like them all...
Okay I'm lying....there's an exception for this one egomaniac....

Anyways...I think I'll really miss E37Q...
They're like...one of the most hardworking but playful bunch of hobbits I've ever met in RP...
But then...I have some friend issues with some of them...

It's just like wad I told WT about...
And I'm sure she knows who I'm referring to...
But I still think I'm an insecure brat...
I really think too much about wad others think about...
I think that I think too much...see????
Inferiority complex is soooo not enjoyable....

I'm still looking for buddies...like wad I told WT...
But I thank God for precious friends like:
1) Jerome the Awesomest Prime Minister of the Hobbits!!!!
2) Marlinisari the Seducer and evil Mistress!!!
3) Myzan the Bitch!!!
4) Xian Wee the Tallest Awesomest Prime Ministress!!!
5) Rashidah the Gossip Girl!!!
6) Wanting the MissTSK!!!
7) Jeselyn the Ubin girl!!!
8) Nathaniel the FATHANIEL!

But sometimes I question myself..."AM I A GOOD FRIEND?"
Coz if I am...then why aren't YOU a good friend back?
I mean...if u treat someone nicely...u WOULD expect that someone to treat u back the same way right?
Sighhh...but like wad WT said...maybe I think too much about stuff...
Let's just enjoy the good times ya??
Hmmm...something like...
"Remember the good times...forget the bad times?"
Or something along that line....

Anyways...catch me on Twitter!!!

Remember!! God is with us!!!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

CHAPTER 5: CLANDESTINE UNHAPPINESS SERVED WITH ACRIMONY...


Hey people!!!


Like finally...I'm back to BROGGING!!!


And wad better way to revive the half-dead corpse-of-a-blog than with another critically-acclaimed award-winning EMO BLOG POST??



Ok lemons and sarcasm aside....
I'm seriously upset...
About loads of stuff...
Stuff that makes u irritable...erratic....unhappy and acrimonious...
Ok...too much vocab vocab....

I just got so caught up with so much shit stuff in my life now...
I need more than just laxatives to flush it all down...

I mean seriously...who needs a jerk to be in your team twice in a row??
And then there's the "I'm-thrown-in-a-corner-like-a-used-tissue" syndrome again...

Oh God I seriously hate this feeling EVERY. SINGLE. FREAKING. WAKING. MOMENT. IN. CLASS.
It's like...high school drama we watch in bitchy shows like High School Musical...iCarly...
U know....Ammeriiicaaaan-cultureeee

Thank God E37Q doesn't have much evil class politics....
But I feel like I haven't really been honest with myself for the past 8 months in RP...
I mean...I was NEVER my real self in class...
Sure everyone thought I'm the "LOL-boy" or "Smart-guy"...

But then....everytime I'm with my sec sch mates...I feel....normal....

It's like a sacred word...to be NORMAL....

Nonetheless...I'm grateful to have such a drama-mama friend like MARLINISARI!!!!
Hahaha!!
Oh my gosh...I wish we were like...in drama IG together...
I dunno wad's so fun about Lini....

Maybe it's the fact that she knows wad I'm always rambling about?
Or maybe it's coz we like to DRAMATISE everything? (From buying food to doing worksheets)

And then there's Jerome my "unofficial bestie".....
Ahh yes that little bitchy drug addict...
He's like hooked on ecstasy everyday!!!
Super high everyday....it makes me super scared!
But it was fun to joke around with him!!
And thanks for listening to my ramblings on MSN today...
Your black fonts were printed onto my memories....never shall it die...

And then there's the girls brigade....
U know who u ladies are!!!

Oh thank God for them too...they make me sooo happy sometimes...
Their incessant screeches and squeals of laughter makes me think that I'm in an all-girls poly...

Then there's the bros...
Awww...."official DOTA-apprentice" Myzan..."stanley bitch-machine" Daren and " 2nd unofficial bestie" Nat!

I dunno why...but these guys made me LOVE E37Q...
They're waaaaay cooler than any other guy friends (except for some in sec sch) I've met in RP...
They take fun to another level in class...thank God I prayed so earnestly hard for them...

I shall try to get over my sadness soon...
It might take a while...
But in the meantime...I hope the situation for me in class improves...

In summary...I'm just a whiny 13 year old boy who wants his own DS...
So he can play Cooking Mama!!!
Hahah kidding!! But that would be nice...

Anyways...UT week this week...
Cognitive down...Marketing and Entrepre to go...

I pray hard that the new p6ers would happines in the youth ministry...

And lastly....I hope people will read AND tag this blog!!!
PLEASE!!!!!

U dun want me to go on my knees! (Trust me...u dun wan it....)

YOU ARE GOOD...ALL THE TIME...AND YOUR LOVE ENDURES FOREVER...

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

EMO POST CHAPTER XIV??

Sigh....
It's one of those emo posts again....
As usual....my emo rantings wouldn't end....

But why???
Sometimes shit happens to me...
But of all places...it has to be church...
Why?????

This incident brought so much pain back...
So many bad memories of wad happened not long ago...
I dun wan it to happen again....making the same mistake TWICE....

I cried abit just now...thinking about why it just HAVE to happen AGAIN....
Trials come like the weather...
Unfathomable and unpredictable...

The stress of sch piled up with this makes it so much more shitty....
There's always no end to it...

Sometimes I think to myself..."Why dun I have any church friends to talk it out with?"
And also "Why am I facing this now??"

"Is it because God wants to test me? See if I pass?"

"But why is it always harder than wad others seem to have? Why me??"

Sometimes I wish I had all the answers....and ask God for more help...
God help me. I want to be a better youth leader. At least, better than THEM.